Dead but alive

Dead but alive

I saw me at a grave yard



Standing at the gateway


My hair falling at my face


And the breeze blowing them away


My dress hanging lose below my knees


I almost looked like an abundant spirit


I saw your car pass by


But you did not stop for a visit


I looked at you


Until I could see you no more


A tear rolled down my face


In my hand I held a phone


I looked at the screen


Blank


Then I saw me smile


I saw myself turn back


And walk for a while


And she vanished


Leaving just the phone behind


I ran to pick that up


I checked the call list


No calls


An empty inbox


Just your no. saved with your name


And 365 messages in the drafts


A message for each day


I wondered why had I not sent them


I begun to read them all one by way


And I realized


Two things


That I was unconditionally


In love with you


And second


I was dead


But still my spirit wandered


In hope that one day


You might miss me


And try to know where I was


You might try to contact me


Which you seemed not to


You did not even remember my birthday


May be you have forgotten me


May be you need me no more


I felt so angry


And so upset


How could you be so rude


I almost crushed the rose


I had brought for myself


Realizing this I simply


Kept it on my grave


Bid myself good bye


And raced towards your home


You had just reached home


Your wife greeted you at the door


Your daughter came running and


Insisted you to take her in your arms


Sunny came running and hugged you too


You kissed them on their forhead


And moved in


You are so happy


I don’t know why but


Your happiness was making me


More uncomfortable


How could you forget me so easily?


I was about to burst out of anger


It was then I noticed you


Walk out in your balcony


Where you had grown a rose plant


It had boomed a new rose in it


You kissed it and said happy birthday


Sweetheart


No


No you hadn’t forgotten me


You remembered me


I wished to run back to me and tell me


That I did not need to cry


And there on the other end


I noticed myself


Smiling


And then I understood


Why had I smiled then


You had kept me alive all


These years


You dialed my number


And then erased it


You simply wished that


I must be happy wherever I am


With my family


Family??


Hello


Don’t you know


I am somewhere far away


Very far from family and friends


Alone


Silent


And yes I miss you


And you think I would


Be happier without you


You miss me too, don’t you?


They say time is the best healer


You will be ok


Soon


You will be ok


Soon


You will forget me


And I will


Then I will


Die for real

Falling asleep

I am sitting by the piano

Running my fingers over the keys

It’s your face that’s flashing through my mind

Every word that you said

Seems to echo in this empty room

I love you

Love you

You

Where have you been?

I missed you

Missed you

You

I am yours

You are mine

My sacred love

Love

Love

And then it

Fades away

And now I am surrounded by silence

I look at the clock

Even it doesn’t seem to move

My world has come to a halt

I see you walk out

Watching carefully

Every step that you are taking

You stomped at the letter

I had left by the door

I am frozen at my place

Not even tears dare to roll down

In my mind I am shouting

Don’t go

Please don’t go

And my lips won’t stir

I know you think

I am stubborn

Heard hearted

That I never loved

And I am back in the same room

But this time I am singing

Singing merrily

That I miss you

Because I know you won’t hear

You won’t know either

As I say I love you

Before falling into a deep sleep

Small act of Kindness

    I have known a girl for around past 2 years,she is called Juhi and she is my classmate. Its just this week that we started to talk. I had never had any conversatons with her before, now that shez sitting with my best friend, right  behind me, I have got to know her better( yeah i feel a bit envious ). Frankly she never caught my attention ever, she is a quiet girl , but now after talking to her ,my complete view regarding her has changed.She is intellegent and an awesome entertainer, I wonder why hadn't I noticed her befor.
       Hmm.....mayby she never shows off......why am I suddenly taliking of her.... there is something about her that I came to know about her from other friends of mine while we were just gossiping in the free time...
Imagine there are three puppies, cuddling up in one another in the grass.. and its very cold.... their mother is no where to be seen .... and you pass by, and you have Rs 7 in your pocket..... what will you do ??
    Probably feel pity and move off, what can you do after all .... and many of them won't notice even. No No ! I am not an animal lover or there is nothing like I  like dogs or pups, the fact is I m reallly scraed of them n try to stay away . well This girl Juhi had the idea what could be done... she bought 2 packs of milk, that costed her Rs 3 each, and fed the pups, they were so small that they had to be fed by using cottten.That is so mother like. It touched my heart. That a 14 year old girl could have so much compassion in her,that thousand other people who passed by didn't have.Her friends say that since then whenever she passed by that road, the pups followed her and she always used to feed them bread or something or the other.Any one would fall in love with that compassion.
I know its not such big act, but its worth praise that teaches us all a lesson. One's act of kindness and love  is never a waist.It blesses him who gets and him who gives.
    Now my eyes are always looking for her , I never know what other act of kindness I might get to see .
Its not just this, there are many other acts of her, small , but that would touch you instantly!!
It brought no change to the world but made a big difference those three puppies atleast. It meant them their life.

You are my Teddy

You have sparkling naughty eyes,Don't worry
I didn't see you do the mischeif :D
Do you know you stole my hear?
YOu are a bad little theif !


YOur little nose is really cute
Your smile drives me mad
Touch wood !! you are so perfectly carved
I can never imagine you sad


Your two pink ears
Burn red when you lie
Cuaght ya ,  quite often
Still wish to believe all the sly


I dream you would hold
My long bony fingers ever
In your big heavy hands
So we could waltz forever


The lion like voice
The warrior's chest
Can tame the wild heart
And flame the rest


Chivalrous,you drive away
My bad dreans too
I can't imagine anything safer
Than to hold on to you!


Your laughter has the melody
All that my ears aspire
Touch wood !You are so handsome
My heart goes flying higher and higher


Your charm is spell bounding
Once trapped,one can't break free
Let me look away from you
Or hypnotized I'll be


I am sure I dreamt you into life
What do I do ? Tell me !
You are my Teddy
But you don't belong to me


YOu are far too special
To be counted in loss or gain,
Flawless as you are
And my favourite you'll remain ! :)

I had never seen a shooting star


Fairies grant wishes through the shooting stars


They fall from heaven in the night hours


My grandma told me that when 5,I had begun


I have had the longing to see it since then



HOping I would get a glimpse I waited late night


Nothing was clear,hardly any stars in sight


The stars seems to dull day by day


They looked so sleepy and seem would vansih away



We were on our holiday I had just turned seven


It was my first tripto my granma's village even


Tall trees with birds chirrupping around


The green was so pretty against brown background



With teetor totter of cricket night was beautiful of all


The stars shone like diamonds,I wished one would fall


Sparkling far from heaven,they were pretty and clear


My heart filled with joy,nothing prettier I had seen I swear



I was startled at the sight,it was so amazing


To see it break from sky and watch it falling


It dropped from heaven to some unknown place


Vanished in a falsh of light without any trace



I closed my eyes and quickly wished upon my star


Which was sent for me by fairies that stayed far


I wish at my home in city I could see sky so clear


Later I asked my mum why ws it so different hear



She told we didn't had smoke streaming out from chinmeys or cars


That could make the air thick or cause the vision to blur


The beauty of nature was undisturbed by greed or selfishness


It was pure it was fresh as required for perfect fitness



I wish men knew how beuatiful was nature


The treasure it held for us to fill our heart with pleasure


At that moment I wished I never had to go back in the jar


To the place where I oculdn't wish upon my shooting star

My best friend

I don't remember when it began

When were we introduced to each other?

I don't think we ever planned

We just meant to be together

Girl you are so beautiful

The look in your eyes charms me!

Your words,your thoughts are wonderful

Your pretty smile warms me

I love it when you hold out my hand

I am clumsy,I know thats what you think

You still call me your best friend
I stare at you without another blink

How beautiful you make me feel
Words can't define
You mean my world to me, its true !I wish
To heal your every ound,Oh! help me , my Divine

I have seen you crying
I have seen you laugh
I have seen you nervous
Like a little calf

I have seen you scared
I have heard you grumble
I have seen you rude
I have seen you humble

My favourite is
The little cares you show
I love it so much
I wish to bow

You are dynamic
You are a mystery
I am out of words
And it isn't flattery

For you I truly care
Wish I could ever thank you
For the colours you fill in
My life that was so blue

I wish to thank you for
The million things you have taught me
To make life a worthy one
To make me proud of me

But I am more thankful to God
For he sent you down from heaven
For me you are me little angel
A gift that God has given

You are there in every prayer of mine
May God bestow all his blessings on you
May he give you best luck
And devise the best fate for you

I wish you lots of happiness
In every sphere of life
I wish you all the success
For the steps you take to strife

I know this is a silly poem
As silly as I feel
I wished to express myself somehow
The things I can never say in real

Girl you are so beautiful
Your bosom is pure and unaffected
No, matter if we are faraway
Say, we will always stay connected

Coz you are my best friend

She sings herself to sleep

I can't see you hurt
So I push you away from me
I can't see you tired

So I scold you not to fly to me

I can't see you burning
So I close up by dawn
I can't see you crying so I never

Show you the bruises I have drawn

I know I can never fight for you
So I never ask for your hand
I know I can't be with you
So I don't expect you to understand

Its so hard to make one believe

With nothing that I can do

So let the words be unsaid
Let them be unknown to you

Though you don't see my feelings
One day you will fall
You'll hear my dumb mouth say I love you
My numbness will reveal it all

Till then I wish you all the happiness
All the good luck and success
May you get what you wish for
And may God give you much more